Update

Thanks to those who sent me emails and left comments asking how I am doing.

I have now finished the 6 months fertility treatment and will have my last hopsital appointment next week. We only get 6 months fertility treatments on the NHS and if you want more you have to go private after that.

I am not pregnant, so the treatment did not work for me, but I am still glad that I went through it. The most positive thing that came out of it is that I discovered that Letrozole works for endometriosis pain. When I was treated for endometriosis in the past, no doctor suggested trying Letrozole, so this was an opportunity to try it for myself. There are still doctors who do no like prescribing it for fertility or for endometriosis as it was initially created as a breast cancer follow up treatment.

As, I was taking Letrozole for fertility, I started taking it for 5 days of the month (from cycle day 2 to day 6). After doing more research, I read about doctors prescribing it for 10 days for those who do not respond to just 5 days, so on the 6th month I took it for 10 days (from cycle day 2 to day 9).

For those who do not want to get pregnant and who just want to use it as an endo treatement, studies recommend taking it for the whole month. They also recommend taking elemental calcium 1000 mg and vitamin D 880 IU daily.

I did not get any side effect from it but some people do so it is worth being monitored by your doctor while taking it.

So what now? I still don’t have enough money to pay for the IVF ICSI with donated eggs. My parents have offered to help but I am afraid that it may not work and I am afraid of waisting their money for nothing. I have found 2 egg donors (family members) but they are over 35 and fertility clinics usually don’t accept donors over 35 years old, so I am still looking for a donor. I still have not found a clinic abroad (please let me know if you have been to any and had a successful result).

I have decided to take it easy (or at least to try) as I do not want to end up depressed by all of this. It is hard sometimes. I want to start accepting that maybe it will never happen. I do not want to give up but I want to let go of the pressure and the struggle. I want to trust that whatever happens, I will be fine.

For now, I will continue taking Letrozole as it is helping with the endo pain (5 days or 10 days and not the whole month).

Next time, I will talk more in details about the effects of Letrozole on my endo during those last 6 months.